I realize that lately I am really not into myself; I didn’t notice it until today. I don’t know why I become like this. So tomorrow I decide to go to the lake with mama and papa Kevin to give myself give myself sometime to think and freedom. It seems like I don’t know what to do with myself right lately. I have been so confused and keep my mind change in every decision I make which is so abnormal for me to do. Oh well, I know NO one can solve it but only myself, so I really have to figure out what I really want in my life.